Have you ever felt as is nothing in this world really mattered? All that you care about is you and your dreams? Because that’s how I’m feeling right now. I feel as if everything can just slip away from me and I wont care. Perhaps its because of my perspective, perhaps its because of my feelings. But right here, right now, I feel so connected with my lifelong dream that I’m prepared to sacrifice anything, everything just so I can reach the top. But with every sacrifice comes tears. That I have learnt, the hard way.


Jae Bum once said during Hot Blood that he’s going to do it as if it’s the last time. I’m going to chase my dream as if its my last time too. I wont let the chance fall away from me. Not again. Perfection. That’s what I aim to achieve. And now, after that talk, I’m all prepared to pack up my bags and leave. But like I said earlier on, sacrifices are not easy. They never are. My friends, the ones that I see everyday, the ones I smile at even though I’m suffering, they don’t know about this. They don’t know when I might just leave. They don’t know when’s our last time.


From now on I promise to be a better person to my friends. Because if I left behind a trail of tears, I may never see happiness again. Because if I left behind angst, I would live the rest of my life in hurt and pain. I won’t do that. I won’t be selfish and I won’t be a fool. Period.



I suppose I really should start accepting people for who they are. Because in the near future, I would be stuck at the bottom of the ladder, and I would have to crawl myself back to the top, with no one to help me. I’m going to be different. Different.


GD Baby-ism™


[That burning passion, that flame of desire. Its in my heart]